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On St. Patrick's Day this year my Grandmother Rosemarie passed away. My Grandfather will be 83 on August 9th, and I try anything and everything to keep him smiling. There was a song that I keep in my head almost all the time. I'm not sure when it was written, or who even sang it, but it goes "Smile a little smile for me, Rosemarie..." That was Gram, always smiling. Some days when I think about her I can smile, but there are other days I just can't. Besides Grandpa, I was the last person to see her alive, and most days I do nothing but miss her. She's up there and knows I love her no matter what.
I'm writing a few lines about my dearest firstborn son Leniere, who was murdered on 08\01\00 by someone who called me mom and ate my food. My son would have been 27 on 08\09\02. He had three children, ages 6,4 and 2. He was strong, loving and would give you the shirt off his back. Please, never underestimate the severity of jealousy. The green eyed monster can make murderers out of man. His senseless murder has forever altered the lives of so many people. I was in the medical field and now suffer from severe depression and can't deal with people anymore. I have no trust. Please pray with me and for me to overcome this and get my life back again one day! To my son Leniere, Happy Birthday, 08\09\75. I just had one too! 08\12 the day I brought you home from the hospital 27 years ago. Seems like yesterday. Thank You Lord for Leniere, even if you just loaned him to me for a while.
MY DARLING DAUGHTER APRIL LILLY TOOK HER OWN LIFE ON AUG 7TH 2002..I WOULDN'T HAVE NEVER LET YOU GO,IF FOR ONE MOMENT I COULD CHANGE THIS OUTCOME IN YOUR LIFE,I WOULD GIVE MY LIFE INSTEAD...SO YOUNG AND FULL OF LIFE YOU LEFT ME FOR A BETTER PLACE..NO MAN ON THIS EARTH WOULD EVER BE WORTH YOUR LIFE MY CHILD..BUT I KNOW YOUR IN GODS HAND NOW,SO I WORRY FOR YOU NO MORE...I'LL MISS YOU TILL THE DAY I DIE.IF YOU ONLY KNEW THE PAIN YOU LEFT IN EVERYONES HEART WHO LOVED YOU...MY CANDLE IN THE WIND!LOVE YOU ALWAYS...MOM 8/20/02
TO MY DARLIN APRIL LILLY CAIN...SUCH A SHORT TIME WITH US YOU SPENT. HOW I MISS YOU AND THINK OF YOU EVERY MIN. OF EVERYDAY. I WISH YOU PEACE...THE CALM THAT COMES FROM TRUSTING IN SOMETHING BEYOND YOURSELF, AND SURRENDER TO YOUR GREATER POWER IN GOD...WE'LL MISS YOU BUT UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, KNOW THAT WE LOVE YOU...MOM 8/27/02
You are making an impact on even those of us that did not ever really know you. Your mother came into my life years ago and then we lost touch - until recently. I know what a good mother she was and how proud she was of you. You have physically left us but you will remain in our hearts and minds forever. You are up there looking down upon us all and keeping many of our loved ones in good company until we meet again. We have to have faith and believe that things happen for a reason. I can already see that this is true you are an angel. Be strong, take care - with love, Renee 8/28/02
Dearest April; Today, tomorrow and forever, you will remain in our hearts and minds for you are part of our every waking moment on this earth. No matter how long it will take, we look lovingly forward to seeing your bright smile, happy face, and being in your presence once again. Until that time, we send our love to you daily; your Mother and I never forgetting what you meant to us and all that you could have been. Your life slipped from your grasp, and we can only stand by for now, and look to the future to be reunited with you. May God bless you eternally, and keep you in his loving hands forever. With love, Ken 08/28/02
Sweet April we miss you dearly. Daddy cries every day. You've only been gone three weeks but it seems a lifetime ago since we heard your voice or saw your beautiful face. You are always on our mind and always in our prayers. Marilyn & Dad 08/28/02
I am so very sorry that I barely got to know you. I wish we would of thought of this earlier. I will miss you everyday forever more. Beleive or not you brought alot of love to the world. There are so many friends that miss you, I hope you can feel the love we have for you. Please take care of your mom and dad, and tell gradmom that there are some days that I waqke up thinking, I need to call gradmom...... Now she's not alone. Visit your mom, she'll feel your presence, I'm sure of it.
Your truely, your cousin, Patti Suarez[o:)]
8/28/02
SYLVESTER MAURICE OKONOBOH JR
SyLvEsTeR WAZ A REALLY SPECIAL,FRIEND TO ME AND WE USED TO WORK AT BELLS TOGETHER AND WE WOULD HAVE SO MUCH FUN.I MISS HIM SO MUCH.HE WOULD ALWAYS FOUND AWAY TO GET U 2 SMILE WHEN U WAZ WE NEVER HAD A BAD DAY AT BELLS BECAUSE HE WAZ ALWAYS THERE TO MAKE IT BETTER FOR EVERYONE,HE WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART AND IN MY MIND BECAUSE THAT WILL NEVER DIE.THOSES THAT WORKED AT BELLS KNOWS THAT HE LOVED TO HAVE FUN LIKE DANCING WITH GIRLS
My Dear Aprill Lilly, I'M SO SORRY YOU LEFT US..MY ONLY REGRET IS THAT WE WE'RE NEVER CLOSE,NOT BY MY CHOICE, YOU WERE ALWAYS A FREE SPIRIT. HOWEVER OUR PATHS WERE NEVER IN THE SAME DIRECTION, I ALWAY LOVED YOU...REMEMBER I ALWAYS TOOK CARE OF YOU WHEN YOU WERE A BABY.I PRAY THAT YOU ARE HAPPY, AND IN PEACE, AND WITH YOUR GRANDMOTHER WHO LOVES YOU SO MUCH...UNTIL WE MEET IN HEAVEN MY LOVE...YOUR AUNTIE OFELIA
We didn't know April very well, but we do know her momma. We know how loving and caring Donna is and how concerned she was about her baby girl. Our hearts go out to Donna and her family and our prayers are
constantly being said for her in this time of sorrow. All our love,
April, sometimes we feel in contol of our lives but sometimes things happen that make us feel so out of control. We go along in life feeling that things happen for a reason but how could loosing you have a reason. If I could of had a chance of changing the steps to your future I would of because you had such a future but now its gone and now I have to try to repair broken hearts. Thats a tough act to follow and its an
impossible feat to accomplish. I wish you peace but if you can somehow give me guidance to give peace to the people you left behind I sure would appreciate it! We Loved you April!
TERESA DEL RIO WAS ONLY 20 YEARS OLD WHEN SHE =ECAME THE THRID VICTIM OF A SHOOTER FOR GANGS IN LOS ANGELES IN JUNE 7, 1999. THE SHOOTER WAS CAUGHT OUT OF STATE AND NOW WILL STAND TRIAL IN 2003 FOR THREE MURDERS AND NUMEROUS OTHER VIOLENT CRIMES. VISIT HER WEBSITE @ WWW.TERESADELRIO.NET
Anna Del Rio
9/10/02
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In Memory of Those Who Lost Their Lives One Year Ago Today
I WANT TO SHARE THIS WONDERFUL POEM TO ALL THE FAMILY'S AND FRIENDS WHO LOST A LOVED ONE A YEAR AGO TODAY...I FEEL YOUR PAIN..THE WHOLE WORLD FEELS IT...ONLY GOD CAN HEAL IT...
MAY GOD BLESS US ALL
DONNA REISS
9/11/02
A solitary candle
A humble, quiet token
The merest spark of hopefulness
That left the dark unbroken
It whispered to the empty night
Of innocence too brief
Of bravery midst adversity
Of anguished souls in grief
Through tear-dimmed eyes it shimmered
A solemn, lonely flame
Its whisper caught the evening breeze
And soon more candles came
A thousand burning candles
A golden, shining sea
Lit a nation's darkened heart
Revealing unity.
A Solitary Candle
by Deborah Whipp of Tallahassee, Fla.
you can read more poetry written by Deborah at the WTC message board
Today I am lighting this candle in honor of you and your wonderful
mother. We have been friends for 25 years and flew together for 20 of those. I watched you grow up through the eyes of your mommy.You were always
the light of her life. She will miss you terribly, but we all know you
are in the best hands now. Your job now, is to watch over her! You now, are truly her Angel,her Guardian Angel. You will always live on in all of our hearts...
It has been now 20 days since you choose to leave the earth and
go to heaven to be free of suffering. I miss you so so much. I'm so
sorry that I wasn't there to rescue you. God knows I tried. But this will
haunt me forever. I know you truly loved me and you know I love you. I
can't imagine life here without you, to think I can't hold you, kiss
you or dance with you anymore. We had so much fun dancing. You were such
a show off (because you danced so well) and you were so proud of me. I
know you really tried hard to battle your gambling sickness and we went
through alot, me and you.
No one could ever take your place and I will love you forever. Please
stay near me and be my angel now.
Till we dance again, love always,
your honey-Angie
10/08/02
Sharon Barr
It's just been your 2nd anniversay, since God chose to take you so suddenly. To think all those years of headaches, they didn't detect an anurysm. It makes me so mad. You finally found a happy life and then it was gone. Did Joe meet up with you? I hope you 2 are singing and dancing together-he's a great dancer. I miss you both.
its now been 29 days since you left me. Its not getting any
easier. I just wish that you could tell me that you love me, forgive me and that you are watching over me. I really need to hear that. How hurt and alone you must have felt-and its killing me that I should have known
where you were, instead I stayed home waiting for you - praying like and idiot but it looks like the devil won this time' Loving you forever,
it has now been 37 days. I am going crazy. I can't stand this feeling of missing you. I don't know how I can make it through. I know I can only take it one day at a time and I'm trying but its hard. I need you. I miss you and I never could handle change well. This is one hell of a change, and I hate it. I just want to die too.
Love Angie
10/25/02
still always in my heart Ben. we miss you!!
Anonymous
10/20/02
Our Bendaddy
we love you!! We know that you come to us in our sleep!!
Samamtha and Jacob
10/20/02
Silver Seraphim
My best friend Victoria passed away this October. She was 15 years old.
She died of Anorexia Nervosa. The previous summer, both her parents
were killed in a tragic accident. She never emotionally recovered from
this.
There's not much I can say that hasn't already been said. All I can say
is it broke my heart. A lot of people were touched by her beauty.
The nickname she had chosen on a forum where she turned to for solace,
probably the only place she shared her feelings besides my ear, was
SilverSeraphim. She truly has risen now. Please wish for the her to be in
a happier place, in peace and finally without all that pain.
Think of my angel
Love,
A.
10/29/02
Silver Seraphim
I pray for her that she and her parents are together again and in
peace. It is sad what happened to her and my heart goes out to you PPR.
*hug* From her posts she was a beautiful girl and the world will
certainly miss her. I hope she is free from her pain.
Wish
10/30/02
Silver Seraphim
She was a courageous, beautiful person... so full of life.
Kazi
10/31/02
John
10/08/78 -09/01/02
You had just started to have some
happiness in your life. I wish that I had said I
love you a whole lot more.
love M
10/31/02
John H. Corriher
December 31, 1918 - September 1, 2002
Remember how we use to sit on that old front porch swing and sing our
hearts out? Well, in my heart, I can still hear you singing. I was
blessed to have twenty four wonderful years with you. I love you and miss
you PeePaw.
"The other night dear, as I lay sleeping, I dreamed I held you in my
arms. When I awoke dear, I was mistaken. And I hung my head and cried.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are
